I’ve had a pretty shitty week. I think I’ve had some kind of mental meltdown since about last Sunday, and I also handed in my two weeks’ notice at my job. That’s not the cause of my depression, but it sure hasn’t helped any. The only thing I have been able to do successfully this week between crying and sleeping, has been to take photos of my food.
I forced myself to train really hard tonight and that made me feel slightly better, but I’m still feeling like digging a hole and lying in it for months. Depression is not something I usually talk about, because generally it’s not something I want to dwell on and discuss – it’s something I want to beat. This week has really fucked me up and made me feel like maybe that goal is a lot harder than I thought it would be.